3 MONTHS

I cant believe that i'm 3 months along already! Its getting to the point that i'm actually starting to get excited to be a Mom instead of being terrified of whats coming:)

Things that are happining so far....

I'm starting to get feeling better...( hopefully no more throwing up)

This week I have started to feel more energy than I have in a long time:)

I unbutton my pants now... not cause they dont fit... it just feels better.

Josh has been an AMAZING husband and so willing to take care of me.

We have seen our baby and heard the heart beat twice.

I think its a girl, her heart beat is fast. (higher on the chart of what it could be.)

Um.... i'm kinda gasey:)

I will be 14 weeks on Friday.

I have had a really hard time coming to terms with being pregnant. Josh and I wernt planning on starting our family until later this year. I know its not that much of a difference other than it got josh through a whole year of school with out having to get a job and provide for a family. So when we found out I just cried and cried. Josh was extreamly happy :) I knew i loved him! Then after that I started to get sick and developed a pretty crappy attitude about having a baby. My body was tired, I was sick of throwing up and everywhere I read it was about you will glow when your pregnant... blah blah blah. I did not feel pretty with my clothes getting tighter. I have

NEVER

EVER

EVER

Gotten zits before and I was breaking out. WHAT THE CRAP.

Amazingly enough I was looking online and one of the " baby bump " celebs talked about how pregnancy wasnt a time about feeling sexy or pretty, it was a maternal time. A time us girls get to do something TRULY amazing. Our bodies are going to go to pots, but we need to focus on what were doing. :) Also, a few friends blogs helped too:)

Needless to say who would have thought it would have been a dumb celeb ( thank you jessica alba) who would have made me feel dumb for thinking so much about myself and what {I} was going through.

Now.... I cant stop thinking how excited I am to hold my sweet baby and get the chance to be the best mom that I can. Who would have thought that this chance would GET to come so soon for Josh and I.

here is a picture of me at three months. {DONT LAUGH} Its hard to take a picture of yourself with a point and shoot camera. also we dont have any mirrors that are that low other than our messy extra room.

{here is josh showing off our new surprise!}